mind vs body

This is my post I made on American Cancer Society 50 Squats A Day December challenge FB page.  It came about seeing people share their accomplishments of doing 10, 20, 50 or more squats in a day.  This is apart of Pink Gravel's story and the role I hope it can play for others looking to be active in any capacity during or after the battle.
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The post:
I am impressed by those who go above and beyond the 50 squats each day. I think it is awesome!  If I was doing this a year ago, I'd be right with you. But someone decided I needed to fight some boob cancer this past year, so I am still trying to just be more active a bit more everyday till I can get a true routine back.

As I tell people about my cancer experience, I remind them of how in college there was something known as The Freshman 15; well, I found there is the Cancer 15.  My weight gain came not during the treatments but after while the effects of the treatments were working themselves out of my system.  Not to mention a pill I now take for the next 5 yrs which  is known to enhance weight gain not make me run fast. (I know, right?)

So many days I wake up, making a conscious effort to choose that today will be that day that I REALLY will get back to being active. I sometimes even grit my teeth and look in the mirror at myself and say it out loud. "For real, Amy, today we are going to do it"

"But, but, but.... it is hard," says my body. "I already fought cancer now you want to do this?"  My body is obviously not on the same page as my mind.  Eventually, by evening, the mind is tired of fighting my body and says, "Ok, sit on the couch this evening, but tomorrow we try this again."

"Sure," my body says with fingers crossed.
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That is where I have been for awhile now.  I completed all chemo and radiation early May 2020 and slowly adding pounds.  It made me sad inside.  I have stopped beating myself up about it daily and have accepted it as a part of the cancer experience.

I am ready for a new chapter now.  My come back.  My cancer come back.  And I really think this ACS challenge is where it starts.  I can feel it in my thighs....literally.😁

So if you power out 50 squats in one go or sprinkle them throughout the day like me, you are all awesome! 

50 squats is 50 squats.

Picture is from a NE gravel bike ride on June 13, 2020 that I did with husband just 1 month after last treatment. That is the face of frustration and determination. Kinda like the one I make doing these squats but without a helmet. Ha ha